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★ Alyssa Antoine ★
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It's the arrival of a new adventure through 365 days. That means...

lots of drinking?

um... unplanned pregnancy?


filling out trivial questionnaires to document your own growth :la:


What did you do in 2013 that you'd never done before?

Experienced my first committed relationship, read my first book by the lovely John Green, auditioned for a school play (and landed a great role!), wrote my first slam poem, sang in front of an audience (an ensemble of the National Anthem), and had a first-time sledding experience with friends.

2: Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I don’t typically make New Year’s Resolutions because I’m a progressive and proactive person in general so I just expect myself to make brilliant achievements *looks stoically into the distance*

Actually for this coming year, my New Year’s Resolutions, though some are a tad short-term, are to organize my laptop archive, perform my first spoken word poem, and of course, read and write fucktons of quality literature.

3: Did anyone close to you give birth?


4: Did anyone close to you die?


5: What countries did you visit?

Unfortunately, none. I live in the United States and haven’t traversed the border quite yet.

6: What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?

More meaningful and committed friendships, improved public speaking skills.

7: What dates from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

July 24th and October 24th, the beginning and end of my relationship.

I don’t remember many other specific dates. All of the ones spent promiscuously masturbating over Skype or at laid-back parties with my friends.

8: What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Getting Student of the Week three times so far in my sophomore year (?) Uhh… it’s hard to measure academic achievements to other things. Psychologically, I think my biggest accomplishment was moving on from my last relationship and gaining a fresh and renewed sense of self worth.

9: What was your biggest failure?

Lying to my parents over the summer, which had fatal effects on my relationship. (At least I learned from the mistake, so in fact one could say it’s not a failure at all.)

10: Did you suffer illness or injury?

Ehh, I have dealt with excessive anxiety and an iron deficiency for years. Fortunately the negative impact of both on my health are gradually declining.

11: What was the best thing you bought?

Red leather handcuffs which have yet to be used. :meow:

12: Whose behavior merited celebration?

My friend Audrey is the most celebratory person I know (hosting parties and being a generally happy individual.)

13: Whose behaviour made you appalled?

Sometimes my father’s, mostly my sister Emily’s.

14: Where did most of your money go?

The scarcity of money of my actual own possession was spent on two books, my first pair of “booty shorts”, and the previously mentioned kinky bondage.

15: What did you get really, really, really excited about?

So many thingssss

16: What song will always remind you of 2013?

Blurred Lines, the hideous and repetitive rape anthem and bane of my feminist existence.

Though I also like to recall the classy and better quality music which I discovered (The Kitchen Floor by Little Green Cars, Wasting my Young Years by London Grammar, Closer by The Tiny, other slow and soothing indie tunes.

17: Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder? (b) thinner or fatter? (c) richer or poorer?

Overall I would say happier, or at least more positive in maintaining a happy outlook on life. I’m definitely thinner (around 10 pounds, by mild dietary and physical improvements since last year). I’m still a broke little Alysseh.

18: What do you wish you'd done more of?

Studying. I’ve far exceeded my levels of studying since my sophomore year began, but my freshman year was slightly lazier and stagnant as far as hitting the books went.

19: What do you wish you'd done less of?

Droning in unrequited love, caring about the judgment of others.

20: How did you spend Christmas?

At my house for a small family gathering (where I watched Bo Burnham’s new special “What.” with my cousin : D)

21: Did you fall in love in 2013?

In and out.

22: What was your favourite TV program?

I hardly ever watch television. The only two series I’ve bothered to watch are The Walking Dead (which I adore) and Glee (which I am actually quite a bit ashamed to admit that I watched.)

23: Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

Not sure if I “hate” anyone. Most bitterness outside of that toward family members has been resolved.

24: What was the best book you read?

Looking for Alaska by John Green, The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold.

25: What was your greatest musical discovery?

I have a deep and intimate affection for the band Little Green Cars. The lead singer/only female member has a low and trilling voice that I find very beautiful.

26: What did you want and get?

Love, good grades.

27: What did you want and not get?


28: What was your favourite film of this year?

Catching Fire, Stoker, and Dead Poets Society were all great.

29: What one thing made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Abandoning fear of what other people think about me.

30: How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2013?

A blend of hipster-y tops, dresses, and skinny jeans.

31: What kept you sane?

Voraciously reading fan fiction (oops), drawing, and keeping a journal of my little philosophies and ideas.

32: Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

I mostly abstain from media and pop culture but Bo Burnham is a sexy beast and a young comic/poetic genius. I also really like Jennifer Lawrence and her ripple effects on positive body image and being oneself in the presence of cameras and fiendish paparazzi

33: What political issue stirred you the most?

Obamacare. Luckily it fueled a lot of research and I have gained more knowledge regarding government operations, health care, and politics than I have ever had before.

34: Who did you miss?

Hmm… I guess in a slight and peacefully reminiscent way, I miss my ex-boyfriend and I long for him to be in my life as a friend.

35: Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013.

Pursue what and who you want, and do it fearlessly. Be outspoken and decisive or all your desires and opportunities will slip away from you. Moments occur and pass and do not repeat. Avoid small talk. Carpe diem.

36: Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

Cliche musical references are against the religion that I don’t have

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theperian Feb 10, 2014  Professional Traditional Artist
Thank you for adding 'Erato' to your collection! :heart:
Echolalic-Ellie Jan 25, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for the watch. :hug:
aWay-with-knives Jan 26, 2014  Student General Artist
No prob!
LiliWrites Jan 8, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Happy birthday to you! :D I hope your year is filled with too many treasures to count. :heart:
thank you!
Happy birthday :D
Shoeborn Dec 30, 2013  Student General Artist
umm...I guess you deleted the journal entry? If you don't want to think about it anymore, then just ignore me; but here's what my comment was going to be.
I know what you mean. Meeting people we share things in common is so much easier online...wheras in real life, we're bound by geography and various demands. also, doing nothing is addictive. I hope you find something/snap out of it (not meant to be taken as a "it's your fault", I just mean I hope things improve) soon.
Thanks so much, I really appreciate it.
sometimes all it takes is writing it out to see that I have the ability to change it  and make things better.
Shoeborn Dec 30, 2013  Student General Artist
Of course, and I'm glad of it.
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