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★ Alyssa Antoine ★
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I was more than surprised to open up DeviantArt today to check my messages and then discover I had earned my third Daily Deviation on this poem:

here, after deathi.   i wish everyone who peddles god
could watch my grandmother die.
i wish they could know the panic
branching like fire through my fingers
as i listened to her choke, half-asleep in her bed
on the other side of a dark room,
wondering if she’d still be there in the morning
or if i'd be able to say her name again
in anything but a whisper
ii.   i wish that
the stewards and
good news-tellers
could hear her cry
the morning she woke up thinking the cancer was gone
only to die all over again,
trying to stand on god, on the floor,
doing anything to keep from going under.
i wish i could have filmed it
and shown it to every pastor,
every asshole on facebook
letting their keyboard do the grieving,
because
i want to see
the violent upheaval of sorry.
i want to watch them watch her body shrink
like lost faith
deteriorating in thin sheets,
every starved bone
woven and unwoven by god
iii.   i want to see the bruised hands of jesus
and the blood on his fucking face
the day he r


Four years ago I was a really fat angry atheist who uploaded fan fiction and Microsoft paint anime doodles. Today I am a slightly less fat/angry atheist who doesn't upload fan fiction or Microsoft Paint anime doodles but maybe probably still makes them in her free time. (You'll never know.)

Thank you for your support. Thank you for your advice; for your criticism and your compliments. Thank you for making the art that fueled me when I was uninspired, and the friendship that helped open my eyes to the welcoming and nourishing community that would aid my artistic progress for years to come. I am so grateful.

I have matured and learned so much since the beginning of my creative journey, and this is far from the end.

No matter where you came in, thank you for tagging along.
I was more than surprised to open up DeviantArt today to check my messages and then discover I had earned my third Daily Deviation on this poem:

here, after deathi.   i wish everyone who peddles god
could watch my grandmother die.
i wish they could know the panic
branching like fire through my fingers
as i listened to her choke, half-asleep in her bed
on the other side of a dark room,
wondering if she’d still be there in the morning
or if i'd be able to say her name again
in anything but a whisper
ii.   i wish that
the stewards and
good news-tellers
could hear her cry
the morning she woke up thinking the cancer was gone
only to die all over again,
trying to stand on god, on the floor,
doing anything to keep from going under.
i wish i could have filmed it
and shown it to every pastor,
every asshole on facebook
letting their keyboard do the grieving,
because
i want to see
the violent upheaval of sorry.
i want to watch them watch her body shrink
like lost faith
deteriorating in thin sheets,
every starved bone
woven and unwoven by god
iii.   i want to see the bruised hands of jesus
and the blood on his fucking face
the day he r


Four years ago I was a really fat angry atheist who uploaded fan fiction and Microsoft paint anime doodles. Today I am a slightly less fat/angry atheist who doesn't upload fan fiction or Microsoft Paint anime doodles but maybe probably still makes them in her free time. (You'll never know.)

Thank you for your support. Thank you for your advice; for your criticism and your compliments. Thank you for making the art that fueled me when I was uninspired, and the friendship that helped open my eyes to the welcoming and nourishing community that would aid my artistic progress for years to come. I am so grateful.

I have matured and learned so much since the beginning of my creative journey, and this is far from the end.

No matter where you came in, thank you for tagging along.

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Braxton-T-Rutledge Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2014
Thanks
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saigonka Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2014
thank you so much for watch!! *w*
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BlueStanza Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for adding my poem to your collection! I appreciate the support. :)
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SilverInkblot Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for the collect on Waiting :)
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Wordeea Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thank you for favving "consensus" :)
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herbodyismycoffin Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2014   Writer
thank you for the favorites! i'm honored!
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DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for adding Why advertising ain't evil to your favorites. I'm glad you like my writing :)
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JayMutt Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2014   Digital Artist
you're a qt3.14
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BittersweetObsession Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2014   General Artist
aw thank you bae
your haircut makes you look like a qt3.15 
<3
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